Sinting!!!!!!!!

sinting!!!!
belum cukup aku stress ditinggal sendirian di rumah (ada mbak2nya seh) masih harus selesein back up file2ku yg minta ampun banyaknya sampe hard disk penuh..... eeeeeeeeeehh masih ada orang gelo nelpon2 gitu

aku tuh ya kan lagi ditelpon Navel, taunya ada telpon masuk.. nomer ga dikenal gtu... ya udah aku angkat aja siapa tau orang jakarta atau knapa gtu... tnyata................. cowok! bilang temennya Heru pula (awas yah Heru!!!!!!!!!!!) trus parahnya dia bilang, "dulu aku sms kamu jawabannya kejam, masa' kata kamu gini: kalo mau kenalan ga usah deh.. kalo cowok aku ga mau.. kamu inget ga dulu ngomong gtu?" oh well, ni cowok minta dibasmi!!!!!! minta ditabok!!! kalo tau dulu aku jawab kaya gtu ya udah napa.. ga usah nelpon2 lagi sgala... waktu itu kayanya aku lagi sebel2nya ma cowok yah? tapi skarang aku masih anti banget ma yg namanya cowok selaen suami2ku di Korea n Shone.......... yg namanya menyangkut cinta kek jadian kek, aku dah ga peduli tau.... sampe heran kok aku bisa dingiiiiin banget gini...............
tapi kenal kan sapa aku??? mana mungkin aku trus pas ditelpon tadi jawab,"ya udah kalo gitu ngapain situ telpon2 sgala? nanya2 rumah segala? nanya ganggu nggak, wong sudah pasti ngganggu!! busuk!!" nggak mungkin kan aku bisa kluar kaya gtu?? ya dah jadinya aku cuman diem aja n untung..................... Navel telpon lagi................. Thanks God!!! nih anak satu ini sering bawa keberuntungan nih emang.. he2.. oiya, suaranya tuh miriiiiip banget ma Ayu lho! aku sampe kaget kirain Ayu yg nelpon...

ya wis, harus bobok nih... besok Dian katanya mau nginep *baiknya naeui chingu yg satu ini* trus widya vivi felice mau meng"invasi" rumah katanya... hehehehe... dah lama ga rame2 gtu sih yah...

oiya, awas si Heru besok!!

These recent days

waaah banyak cerita deh kayanya.........

~ OSCE 6 ~
uhmmm awalnya agak2 reseh gtu, soalnya pas mulai ga ada yg mo masuk duluan mana udah telat gara2 ga ada probandus gtu....
tapi tnyata lancar2 aja tuh OSCE... mana waktunya kayanya ga terlalu strict gtu.. biasa sih kalo dari bagian Obsgyn gtu dokter2nya baik2 n ga pelit kasih nilai... walopun ada 1 dokter reseh yg nyindir2 kesalahanku (aku juga bodho kebangetan, masa' duk ga takambil!!)
yg parah tuh Refleks pathologis deh.. aku di sana ga tau grogi or knapa aku jadi diem aja mana salah pula pake alatnya... ga heran deh kalo disuruh ngulang... tapi kalaupun disuruh ngulang aku ga kuatir cos pada dasarnya aku dah bisa cuman ya itu tadi kadang2 penyakitku kambuhan gtu je piye jal?
yah pokoknya OSCE kali ini ga tlalu bikin stress deh...
Just have to pray for a good mark ^^

~ Jualanku ~
ga nyangka mayan laku juga... yah dapet untung bersihnya sejauh ini baru 300ribuan seh, tapi mayan kan? ga susah n capek bisa dapet duit gtu... moga cepet nyampe 500ribu deh, tapi kayanya bakal lanjt lagi nih demi DVD jepun KangTa yg entah apa isinya yg harga asli di YA aja 400ribu lebih... apa ga mampus tuh aku.. kapan kebelinya T_T sayang juga sih, soalnya [ertama itu versi jepun, trus kedua subsnya chinese, ketiga aku masih pingin single ke-2 SS501 n Pic book KangTa yg Dear Memories ntuh.... ultah besok pasti dapet angpau banyak seh, tapi kan kalo ambil banyak2 ntar ketauan papa dunks... berabe ntar

~ Download-anku ~
nih laptop tiap hari cuman istirahat 2 jam neh gara2 aku pake download terus.... hari ini berhasil download Love Letter ^^ pingin nonton, tapi ntar2 deh... seharian tadi ngurusin pesenan CD, ngirim CD, kerjain farmako, n temenin mama ke sana ke sini... capek..

~ DMSO ~
dah cerita belon yah harga DMSO 1 liter 680ribu?????
ga boleh beli dikit2 pula
tapi tadi dah nanya Amy, dia bilang harusnya sih di Lab Kimia ada, tapi ga tau yg mana n lab2 itu banyak yg lagi renovasi.. yah terpaksanya nunggu dengan sabar neh

~ Proposal KTI ~
udah disetujui!!!! tinggal jilid n minta tanda tangan pengesahan.....
harus mulai rancang penelitian neh...
tapi piye no, DMSO ku??

~ Ngantuk ~
Kayanya masih ada beberapa cerita
tapi bhubung dah ngantuk, besok2 aja yah......
Wan an.....

2006, June 21st

tadi ulang OSCE..............
Aku kira bakal lebih oke atau gmana, tapi gara2 disusu2 ma ibunya, jadi aku ga tau deh gmana hasilnya... aku dapet giliran trakhir soalnya, n si ibu udah ada janji gtu ma orang... T_T nasibku kok jelek amir yah akhir2 ini.... however, slese 1 masalah....

besok lusa OSCE semester ini.... ga tau deh nasibku gmana....
pokokna klo dah masalah OSCE aku angkat tangan deh...
masalah lain, mau gempa, mau ujian, mau lomba, mau olimpiade, mau hantu, mau kemah juga bakal enteng aku hadapin... tapi klo dah 1 kata: OSCE... mampus pasti! 1 lagi yg aku mampus juga --> presentasi...

sabtu tentamen... tapi blon blajar blas... mbuh lah, ga ngurus... ga niat banget yah blok ini... makin parah aja deh aku =(

kpala sering pusing ga tau napa... gigi sembuh ganti kpala.. macem2 aja aku...

oya, senin depan mama papa brangkat ke shanghai.. moga2 mama bisa sembuh deh.. trus jimmy juga ngikut ke jakarta n ditinggal di sono.. sendirian deh aku di rumah.... mama bilang,"brani? ga takut? dian diajak nginep aja pa?" me:"brani lah....... udah umur brapa juga... dian? ga usah.. bikin repot aja.. wong aku sendirian juga gpp.."

well, kayanya sih gakpapa, itung2 ngrasain seminggu ga ketemu mama papa... dulu pernah pas di bandung, tapi kan itu ga di rumah sendiri toh.. tapi pasti bakal kangen niiih... ga bisa jalan2 pula.. belon pergi dah dilarang:"jangan ke mall dulu!!" bakal jadi pecandu tv nih besok..

uhmm, tiba2 pengen drama lagi.. ada Spring waltz soalnya.. tapi entar2 dulu deh.. walopun pemasukan btambah, tapi kayanya musti hemat dulu deh... masih pengen single SS ke-2.. oiya wishlistku blon diupdate ^^;; single SS dari panda napa blon dikirim yah T_T ga sabar pengen Baby (haha, ga da hubungan ding yah)

ujian bneran tgl 10 & 12.. jadi ada minggu tenang.. seumur2 6 semester kuliah baru kali ini ujian ada minggu tenang sgala.. moga aja selese belajarku.. hehehehe

omong2, besok kamis yah??????!!!!!! baru nyadar!!!!! besok tutorial euy! belon blajar... tapi males... paling juga dapet 90 lagi... ga jauh2 dr itu kan.. jadi ga usah ngomong deh.. males banget.. besok bangun pagi ah, ngapal2 bahan osce dikit

uhmmm, ditinggal 1 minggu aku bisa diet neh.... beratku naek mulu, jadi harus diet deh..

dah ah... bobo' dulu.. moga download-anku ga macet... masih banyak nih antriannya T_T

Some funny things........

Your Irish Name Is...

Roisin Clarke

What's" your Irish Name?

Your Power Color Is Lime Green

At Your Highest: You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary. At Your Lowest: You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in. In Love: You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated. How You're Attractive: Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room. Your Eternal Question: "What else do I need in my life?"

What's" Your Power Color?

Your Brain is 73% Female, 27% Male

Your brain leans femaleYou think with your heart, not your headSweet and considerate, you are a giverBut you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

You Will Die at Age 76

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

You Are 52% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

Your Ideal Hairstyle:

Light Edges

What Hairstyle Is Right For You?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Evaluating

You are great at looking at many details and putting them all together.You are talented at detecting subtle trends, accuracy, and managing change. You should major in: StatisticsSpeechConflict studiesCommunicationFinanceMedicine

What Should You Major In?

****** The Last One is really make me shocked!!!!!!! I should Major In Medicine?????? so i'm in the right major now????????? bur why can't i like it???????? this test is crazy (but clever at guessing >.< )*******

2006, June 19th

>,<
He's handsome!!!!!!!!
Oh No... i must stop thinking like that!! But he's so freakin cute >,<
but again..... i can't fall into him anymore! Not again!!!
oh well, i know i shouldn't.. n i won't
cos i loved him not because he's handsome..
but... if u catch ur previous love being more handsome, even though u don't have too much love for him anymore, u will feel something!!! it's normal, right???
I must not stay near to him again........
n stop talking bout him....

i have Baby n KangTa now, n he's just my past, ok?

i know i wouldn't be able to get him, just like i can't get Baby nor KangTa.. it's true!!
he's just as far as KangTa n Baby =(
so i should stop it now!!

I have BAD NEWS!!!
I'll have 2 encounter to patient test this week!!!!
yup, one is for the remediation of the previous OSCE, n one for this semester OSCE!!!!
I'll die!!!!!!!
I'm so afraid!! someone please help me....

i know i will be able to handle those stupid OSCE if only i had more self confidence
but how can i be full of self confidence if i know there's someone expert is watching me, n will piss me off if i can't get things right T_T

God, please be with me n give me strength

2006, June 16th

quite busy these days....
oh well, i mean these 3 days..
i never knew that selling thing can be this tiring... but well, i need money...... i want KangTa pic book + photos, SMtown Summer album 06, SS501 2nd single, n i still haven't paid half of KangTa & Vanness album..
talking bout the profit... it's more than what i think before.. hope i'll get the money quickly so that i can stop this tiring thing T_T

My toothache is getting worse!!!!!!!! like hell!!!!!! it breaks my gum n make an injury like scurvy thing...

Mom & Dad will go to Shanghai next week... cannot join, cos i have to attend lectures =(

bad thing!!!! the exam will be delayed for a week....... means that i can't go having some holidays with my fam!!! OMG, i really really hate school!!!!

one more bad thing! the remediation for OSCE will be held next Wednesday..........
i should start studying!!!! i have to pass the exam!!! God, please help me T_T

i've finished copying n burning 16 CDs......... need to pack them now, n send them tomorrow..

nite...

2006, June 13th

Woot!!!!!!!! I got My CD!!!!!!!!!!!!! KangTa & Vanness' Scandal Single CD!!!!!!!! aaaw, i'm so happy!!! i took some photos, but dun have time to post it now cos i'm too sleepy n i even haven't studied for tomorrow discussion =(

i'm gonna be crazy again when studying for next exam... cos i haven't read anything in hand out..
n OSCE is coming T_T i'm so afraid......

i'm getting lazier these days... why? i really hate school =(

oh well, i studied bout mental disorder this afternoon.. i'm started to think that i have some symptoms of deppression.... i hope it's just my paranoid feeling..... LOL.. oh no, i can't be deppressed, cos i have many things that can make me happy..

i finished my 2nd research proposal.. this time is about lime.. not lemon again... i'll give it to the deans tomorrow.. pray for me, guys..

Dian told me some story regarding to Gitta.. but i think i can't post it here.. just wanna say to her, please think about ur future again carefully, gal.. but i will support whatever u'll decide.. hope u'll be happy with ur decision....

so sleepy now.. should go to bed n wake up at 4 am to study

Happy 1 Year, SS501!!!

i know it's late!! but i still wanna congratz them!! (just blame Blogspot cos it chose wrong time to maintenance the site)

(why does blogspot always make the pics look bad?? dunno how to make it look as its original pics.. anyway it's my first own made banner, though i just add the words LOL)

June 9th, 2006

i wanna talk about yesterday..........

yesterday was my bad bad bad day!!!!!!!!!!
my research proposal was rejected!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! doesn't it sound crazy?? well, after all that i've done???????????

then i really couldn't concentrate on the tutorial discussion....

then my house hasn't been finished being repaired...... so i just could move from one clean place to other clean place...

n....... i forgot that i had lended my flash disk to Widya n that means that it had a virus! then i just connected it to my laptop n yeah........ my laptop was infected by a strange virus that duplicate my folder to a folder with 224 kb size..... i thought it was brontok but i knew it wasn't.. cos it only duplicate the folders in hard disk, n brontok makes the folder with 24 kb.. i really felt afraid!! i hate Virus!!!!!! i really do!!! then what i could do was deleted all the folders manually.. Thanks God, it worked...

well, i was too tired just because of those things....

n i found my blank dvd (that i bought at Ramai Mall some weeks ago) was not being detected by my notebook n my fathers... dunno if it's normal for a blank dvd, but i think it's really unusable... that means i should buy 10 blank dvd again!

hasn't stop yet!!
yesterday night i should study for Histology exams, but my head was aching n i just couldn't help to stay awake.. so i slept n started to study this morning.. fortunately, the exams was quite easy ^^

well, today it's not that bad.. i found the virus remover (so it's called Shuriken something virus) n cleaned up my compie from that virus, n now i can copy my files from my laptop to my dads for making some back up.. My laptop is sucks! the CD writer can't work!
n i can think that maybe God has HIS own plan for me for the rejection of my proposal.. well, i must admit it'll be hard to find lemons n afford buying them.. as for limes, it'll be cheaper n easier to find..

i still have many jobs.. =(

Happy Birthday, Kim Hyun Joong!!!

Just fur my SS501's Leader,



Hope u'll be more handsome n sexy!!
Joyful, health, n successful just for u & SS501
God Bless U ^^

Busuk!!!

Dasar busuk!!! Apa haknya marah sama aku?? Apa haknya ngurusin aku? Sejak lama kamu tuh dah ga takanggep kluarga tau ga? Dibandingin sama temenku yg bukan temen deket aja aku masih milih mereka.. ga mau punya kakak kaya aku?? Aku yg bersyukur banget!!!!!!!!!! Apa untungnya punya adek kaya kamu?? Sekolah ga bener, boros, cuma bisa gaya, sok bener sendiri.. bah…. Kalo memang aku bisa milih pasti aku ga mau punya adek kaya gtu.. setiap ditanyain adekmu skolah di mana, mau kuliah di mana, yg ada aku cuma malu.. maaf kalo aku egois n sombong, tapi emang aku malu, mau apa lagi!

Skarang ikut campur urusanku sama jimy sgala.. dikira aku takut? Mau ngalah? Sorry!! Ini Lia!!! Mau kamu lawan pake apa aku juga ga takut. Gempa aja aku ga takut.. Cuma ngelawan seorang murid Bosa yg mau kuliah di duta aja knapa mesti takut? Sory bukannya bashing 2 skolah itu, tapi menurutku emang ga ada apa2nya, maaf aja kalo orang bilang aku sombong.. kenyataan... di sini aku brani nunjukin sifat2 asliku.. biar deh orang mau baca mau ngomong apa, tapi aku bosen diremehin orang lain.. biar smua tau aku ga suka diremehin. Orang berbuat apa sama aku harus dapet balasannya..

Let’s see what i will do to ur life... let’s see mama papa masih milih aku apa kamu.. kayanya kamu sendiri pasti tau jawabannya..

Mau ke Jakarta nganterin cewek? Entah siapa yg murahan.. terserah mau marah mau ga trima, tapi kenyataan aku ga bisa nerima, ga bisa respek, silakan aja jalan terus, liat apa yg aku bisa lakuin.... awalnya sudah dibantu skarang nantang lagi.. kamu mau ngajak dia aja mama papa nanya ke aku.. jangan harap ya lain kali.. liat deh mama papa milih aku apa dia.. lucu!!! Walopun aku lunak sdkit juga aku bisa sadis ntar..

This is a warning! Aku ga suka orang nyakitin aku.. kalo ada yg ngelakuin hal buruk ke aku, aku pastiin akan bales yg sama atau lebih sakit ke dia.. jangan coba main2!! Cowok n anak aja bisa aku buang dari pikiran, apalagi yg nggak.. n bukan.. jangan anggap aku yg jadi korban dalam masalah itu, aku ga segan2 hadepin hal buruk n hal yg dianggep orang lain ga normal.. kalo aku harus terluka, kalo aku harus sakit, it’s okey!! Aku bisa bales yg lebih sakit ke dia..

Tuhan, aku tau aku bener2 jahat punya pikiran kaya gtu.. tapi aku sungguh2 ga tahan. Siapa yg bikin aku kaya gini aku juga ga tau.. kalau memang jalanku salah, tolong bantu aku kluar. Tapi satu aku mohon, tolong jangan sakiti aku.. cos lama2 satu2nya hal yg bikin aku bahagia dengan hidupku cuma mama papa, n satu2nya impianku cuma pergi ke korea. Aku jenuh hadapin hidup kaya gini.. knapa aku ga jadi anak tunggal aja dulu.. udah ga punya kakak, masih harus punya adek kaya setan..

Brati skarang di kluarga sendiri aku males, di kampus benci, cari pasangan untuk bikin kluarga sendiri ogah……. Apa aku perlu pergi aja sendirian? Ama mama papa bertiga? Gimana?

Untungnya aku masih punya Yesusku.. ga pernah ada pikiran untuk meninggalkan DIA. Tapi perbuatanku kok ga mencerminkan itu ya?

Aku juga bukannya cewek jahat sadis or apa kok.. but dr dulu aku sadar kalo aku egois. Sejak masuk kuliah sudah agak berkurang. Kalo dulu apa yg aku mau aku harus dapet. Skarang aku udah bisa kadang2 terima ga semua yg aku mau bisa aku dapet. Trus apa yg aku ga bisa dapetin orang lain juga ga boleh dapet. Itulah aku dulu.. skarang juga dah banyak bkurang kok. Tapi egois ga mau kalahnya masih besar. Apalagi kalah sama orang yg ga seharusnya bisa ngalahin aku (dr segi pikiranku sendiri) anti dh!!! Sorry aja!!! Aku bisa pake segala cara untuk menang dr orang kaya gini.. laporan praktikum aja aku sembunyiin cuma karma aku ga mau dicontek.. jadi jangan bilang “cuma gitu aja marah“, “gara2 hal kaya gitu aja ngamuk“.. pokoknya kalo aku ga suka ya aku marah.. inget masalah donat dulu aku bisa ngambek??? Cuma donat lho!!! Silahkan ketawa, emang lucu kok! But that’s me!! Mo gimana lagi? Berubah? Gimana caranya? Ga da yg dukung kok. Tiap hari aja dibikin marah2, siapa yg tahan.. kadang2 aja jijik ngeliat tingkahnya, gimana bisa sabar. Tolong ya hargain aku! Kalo aku diremehin, aku bisa lakuin apa aja.. nyakitin orang lain ga masalah buat aku asal aku ga luka..

Ada yg mau jadi konsultanku? Apa aku memang perlu ke psikolog? Psikiater? Banyak tuh dosen di kampus..

N tau ga sih, tadi aku pulang udah niat damai sama jimmy, liat apa akibatnya!!! It’s not my fault!! Certainly it’s not my fault!!! Kalo mama nangis, itu smua bukan salahku! Mungkin otak Bosa-mu ga bisa paham sih.. mau gimana lagi..

Skarang jangan dikira udah menang.. liat aja apa yg udah aku buat lagi...

N u know what, aku sebenernya akan kembaliin semuanya kalo jimmy bilang maaf n janji ga ngulang lagi kok.. salah sendiri dia ga sadar ma kesalahannya.. selama dia ga minta maaf, jangan harap aku berhenti.. no way!

Orang yg bersalah ma aku harus minta maaf dulu baru aku bisa terima mereka lagi..

Hufff.. aku bener2 ngomongin semua kejelekanku nih....

Di hari ultahnya hyun joong gini, dr pagi semuanya ngeselin.. skills lab ga jadi, anatomi bikin bete (knapa sih aku bodho banget ngapalin gtu aja ga bisa!!), dijemputnya lama, rumah diobok2 tukang batu, tangga naik lantai 2 penuh semen ma kotoran n batu bata pecah, internet di kamar ga jalan, laptop batere abis mulu ga da colokan nyala, masih berani ganggu aku?? Jahil ga liat keadaan.. waktu itu aku bener2 lagi emosi, lagi kesel masih digangguin, ya liat aja akibatnya!!! Selama ga da kata maaf, aku ga akan berenti.

2006, May 5th

kuliah lagi......... malesnya......... bener2 kangen deh ama masa2 tanpa tekanan kuliah
sperti yg udah2, aku tu bukannya rajin banget ampe tertekan karna kuliah gtu, tapi ya entah apa yg bisa bikin aku tertekan klo dah di kampus.. lama2 males banget kuliah.. tadi bolos.. tapi itu karna bete, masa 2 kuliah pertama kosong tanpa pemberitahuan, mana tuh tembok ruang kuliah dah retak2 nggak enak diliat, ya dah deh habis ngopi buku neurologi Lange aku cabut pulang.. nyampe rumah tnyata si jimmy habis dimarahin appa.. kaisan tuh anak.. ^^

n hari ini aku denger cerita dr mama ttg someone n itu bikin aku tambah ga respek ma dia.. ya udah deh ga usah dibahas lagi.. mau gmana lagi, namanya ga respek ya ga respek. jangan bilang aku yg judes or knapa buktinya aku fine2 aja ma anak2 laen yg umurnya toh juga di bawahku..

trus walopun niatnya bener2 mau ngirit, tapi tergoda juga tadi ke toko dvd. nemu running wild, my girl n I, forbidden quest, daisy, oh my god, escaping charisma, da vinci code tapi ga nemu almost love (youth comic) padahal aku paling pengen yg trakhir ini nih.. akhirnya cuman beli 3 deh.. ntar kapan2 nambah lagi pas nyari almost love..

trus ke gale, banyak juga retak2nya.. agak ngeri jadi aku buru2 sih.. niatnya juga cuma mau nyari asianstar, tapi tnyata blon ada =(

appa ngambek nih ga mo ngomong, gara2 jimmy... dasar anak nakal..

besok skills lab n anatomi. blum blajar. malah nonton nih skarang..

i hate myself ???!!!!

.......................... had decided to buy Panda's SS501 1st single......... cos Yesasia doesn't have the stocks now n i want to have the CD....... so there i go...... spending too much money again T_T
still want Kangta's 2nd pic book n someone mailed me that she's willing to sell it to me.. 350thousands Rps... of course, i can't afford it now... maybe 2 or 3 months later.. i'll save first (while waiting for my b'day ;D) hope she'll sell that p-book to me that time..

u know what, i'm feeling a little guilty bout these things.......... i spend lotz of money to buy CDs while many people here lost their home n belongings bcause of the previous earthquake.. i kinda bad person.. but i can't help just loosing my oportunity to have these rare things... i dunno if i will be able to find someone else selling those stuffs or not.. so, please forgive me God for being this egoist T_T i hate myself.......................

this week i didn't study anything... guess i will have to study hard tomorrow (this evening, i mean.. cos it's 3.30 am now)

these 2 days there are some earthquake again =(
i hope it'll get vanishing soon..
i hate earthquake!

n..........................
i'm getting more fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! noooooooooooooooooo, i have to exercise more!!!!!!! i have to eat lotz of fruits instead of rice... i'm thinking to drink some laxatives again, but i'm afraid of its side effects (it's one of the risk factors of Uterine prolapse.. scary!!!) n it's expensive too... n the taste is bad.. i think i'll go with having diets n exercise first.. if i don't loose much weight then i'll go with the laxatives thing.... so i have to work hard if i don't wanna risk myself in having uterine prolapse! Fighting!!! i have to loose many kgs.............. it'll be hard!!! i hate myself.... (again...)

uhmm.... Mom still has a nutritional beverages (it tastes like milk, i guess) that she used to drink in her diet.... i'll go ask some tomorrow.. (this morning, i mean LOL)

why don't i feel sleepy???????????????????????
maybe i just need to try to sleep now.. unless i want to have panda eyes at church this morning..
Good nite! =)

2006, June 1st

hari ini jadi potong rambut.. setelah bertahun2 ditunda.. ha3, hiperbolis banget...
oendek lagi deh ni rambut =( mana kata mama kurang pendek coba.. tapi aku keukeuh ga mo dipendekin lagi :p

ga banyak cerita.. hari ini cuman main kingdom heart 2.. lama tuh pasti namatinnya..
trus besok harus mulai blajar dikit2, buat tutorial n praktikum..

uh donlotan masih kurang 2 jam nih.. kemaren dah dapet raising up ep 1-3, skarang donlot yg ke-4. sayang requestnya cuma boleh maks 5 file, ya dah yg ep 6-7 ga tau deh harus liat di mana. youtube rese sih.. tunggu deb2 aja kayanya baru bisa liat. waking up 6-7 aku juga blon liat euy.. stalker juga

trus hari ini juga dapet album 1 Tim, agunya ok2.. cakep pula itu cowok.. jadi tertarik nih..
trus dapet file kangta pastinya.. radio park kyung lim akhirnya berhasil kedonlot, trus ada radio noh hong chul juga tapi cuma audio doank, perform i-concert 127days juga dah kedonlot, ada 1 lagi juga radio deh kayanya...

kmaren nonton LL jadi tambah suka ma bae sul gi.. cantik, manis.. padahal jarang2 aku suka artis cewek.. kemaren nyari link album BSG ini cuma nemu yg dah expired =( di soompi thread musik ga boleh upload2-an seh.. payah..

ngantuk banget euy...

oya tadi pagi ada gempa susulan lagi mayan besar sampe si bobby ribut2 gitu deh
trus seharian dipenuhi goosip ttg merapi.. pusing deh kalo dengerin berita kaya gini >.<

dah bobok ah.. chal ja!!

Bapaknya mbak yayuk meninggal..
Kaget juga dengernya, kemaren dikasih tau lagi sakit tapi belom sempet tilik..
Smoga beliau beristirahat dengan tenang di sisi Bapa n kluarga yg ditinggalkan diberi ketabahan..
Amin